Monday, February 27, 2012

If you're scared, say you're scared!

If you're scared say, you're scared! I'm scared! But, I'm going to do it anyway!  Sometimes, one can have a fear of following their dreams. The fear of failing. I'm going forward, boldly, with my fear.  I discovered that you can use that fear to your advantage and not let it take control of you. When I played college basketball I would get such "butterflies" right before the game. Call it nervous energy, or the fear of messing up resulting in Coach benching me. But, I used those "butterflies" to my advantage and would play a great game, win or lose. And, If I didn't have "butterflies" I would try to make myself get them because I knew I played well off that fear.

Becoming a filmmaker is a different kind of fear! A little bit of the unknown, although I have a several shorts that I've produced and directed under my belt.  It wasn't my intention to become a filmmaker. I came out to California to act. Just act. But, the pickings were slim to say the least and I had to become a creator. A creator of my own destiny. I wish I had that mind set when I first journeyed out here. I have it now.  That's what matters.

I'm gearing up for my first full length feature. Rashetta's Wedding! RW will be shot under my production companies Stone Archer Productions and CrownSoul Entertainment.  Setting up a feature film is equivalent to running a company. There is a lot of work involved and it can be overwhelming. But, staying focused and organized are two main keys to success.

By now most of you have heard about Rashetta's Wedding. We've been talking about it since last year and now we are finally ready to launch our Crowdfunding campaign through Kickstarter beginning March 1st 2012.

Am I scared? Yes, I'm scared. Will I go forward anyway? Yes, I have no choice, that's who I am.


Monday, February 20, 2012


Sometimes it's not about focus but motivation.  A need to know that the hard work, or just the work you put in to something is going to show some type of rewarding results. Especially, when you are trying to work through adversity, and things just don't seem to be going the way you would like. It's not easy. Will it make you stronger? What is the saying, "If it doesn't kill you it will make you stronger."

You're motivated to get up to go to a nine to five everyday to get that weekly paycheck. But, what's the motivation to get up and get going everyday when you work for yourself and there may or may not be a weekly paycheck. People tell you, "Oh, I could never do that. I admire you for that because I need to know at the end of the day I have a paycheck coming in." Is is admirable or stupidity? Or is it stepping out on faith?


Tuesday, December 13, 2011

A Tumultous Journey

On my last six mile hike, where I have a lot of time to think and contemplate, I equated the trail with my journey in the entertainment industry. In order to finish the six mile loop I had to tackle steep inclines, rocky uneven terrains, steep and at times narrow down hills and the rocky "narrows" which sometimes is streaming with water. I had to pay close attention to where I step so that I didn't twist my ankle or fall off the side of the hill when the path narrowed and I had to look out for bikers flying down hill. I also had to listen out for snakes that can unexpectedly cross my path. This is similar to my path in the entertainment industry. The climb uphill trying to reach my goal has been very steep and quite breathless. The path has level out at times but the road has been rocky and narrow (few opportunities) with snakes crossing my path. And, when my career has taken a dive and I start running downhill I have to keep my balance to keep from falling  hard on my face. When I finally reach the bottom and I think I'm at the finish line I come across another rocky wet area where I have to jump stones in order not to get wet. After clever maneuvers  I'm  able to make my way across to dry land and back out in the open, with the road before me. I still have a ways to go to get back to my car, but, I'm tired and a little dehydrated. But, I've got to do this! So, I push forward and my walk turns into a jog then to a sprint. I can't give up! I'm almost there! Never give up! Never!